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… and i am in for a LONG day of studying for my test tomorrow. it sucks! granted though, i do NOT have to deal with the super bowl munchies. i went to the grocery store this morning right before lunch time and that was a big mistake. i know you are not supposed to shop when hungry and i wasnt terribly hungry and i dont usually have too much trouble with buying junk food when i am there. today was different. i have been following my “lifestyle” to the T for 4 days now and boy, all my cravings hit me when i was in the store. i had no trouble waking past the bread aisle or the baking aisle or the icecream aisle, but omg the peanut butter aisle was SCREAMING at me. i absolutely ADORE peanut butter and it is relatively healthy for you (i only buy smuckers natural, so it has no sugar or added crap), but i do not know the word moderation with peanut butter. or for that matter, nuts. they are so salty and delicious. the texture of chewing peanuts or peanut butter is referred to as umami (specifically it is the tastes of digesting proteins) and i LOVE that texture and the way it feels in my mouth. if you can’t tell, peanut butter and nuts are my trigger foods. i stay away from them with as much strength as i can. i have not had peanut butter or nuts in my apartment since . . . . idk, sept maybe. and it doesn’t help that i hear all about the salmonella outbreak in everything but peanut butter spread and it is making me think about it and CRAVE it MORE. weird, i know. anyways, while at the store today i resisted. . . yes resisted, walked right past it, and then for some reason as i was headed to check out my cart took over, dragged me to the peanut butter aisle and picked up a container and headed back to check out. while standing in line, i visualized getting to the car, ripping open the jar and having at it, just like i have unfortunately seen people do with a box of a dozen doughnuts (it’s sad that i have seen people do that on multiple occassions) . ok, back to my story. i had almost convinced myself to actually lower my standards enough to open the jar in the car, when magically, i saw a pack of gum in my purse. i was like an addict reaching for my vice. i grabbed that pack of gum and shoved 2 pieces of minty peppermint gum in my mouth. and hurdle was jumped. the gum saved my life. no really!! it did.! the gum took my mind off the peanut butter. it didn’t completely save the situation though because i didnt yank the peanut butter out of the cart and set it aside like i normally do (yes, i have had to do that on multiple occassions, pathetic, eh??!). the peanut butter had already been rung up. so i paid and left. the jar stayed securely in the trunk while i chewed my gum and drove home, thinking about lunch. normally, it is a turkey sandwich and cottage cheese, but since i knew there was no way i could not keep the PB jar closed, i decided to have a PB tortilla with pumpkin and cinnamon. disgusting sounding now that i type it, but you wouldn’t believe what i eat with PB (i grew up on PB, banana, and TURKEY sandwiches). and the final challenge that i succeeded with today was i did not overdo my sandwich. i measured PB (dont know the last time i did that) and i counted every calorie and believe it or not, i am satisfied. it’s a miracle. and know that i have my PB fix, i am thinking of pitching the PB in a trashcan outside (not inside b/c i will dig it out). i think i am going to do it while i am still satisfied and havent started craving it again yet.

it’s amazing how food can turn us into addicts, huh? it’s sad, it’s true and knowing the truth allows me to determine a solution. good luck everyone and hope i brought a little amusment to your day from my pathetic quest for PB satisfaction without overindulgence. :)  ttys

well, i have had the bodybugg for a week and 5 days and am just now getting a chance to update everyone about it. however, my news is stagnant on my weight loss. i will just go ahead and confess that i am stagnant d/t TOM. so, i am trying so hard to be patient to get to next week and see how my weight changes with the water gone. BUT, enough depressing info. noone wants to hear that. everyone want to hear about the bodybugg. i am amazed at the little contraption. i had my 30 min free counselor session on wednesday and she showed me every aspect of the online program to follow. entering my food calories everyday is a cinch because their database of food is far better than calorieking or anything else i have used; and of course, if you wanted to manually enter a food item, that is simple too. it will document all the nutrition you had for the day and the week and the weight loss journey, as well as do averages for those time periods too. it is an amazing little bugger. BUT, again, i digress because you probably want to know more about the calorie counter. the arm band goes on your left arm around your triceps and hasn’t been difficult to cover up while i am at school or working with patients in the clinic(god bless my white coat). i know it will be a little harder when this dreadful winter is over, but i will take that hurdle when i get to it. i wear the armband all day long, but when i go to bed at night i take it off, but the program will still calculate calories burned at my basal metabolic rate, SO it counts calories 24 hrs a day. and i already mentioned having the thing for 12 days and i havent had to charge it once. tonight will be the first time because it appears to be getting low. you wouldn’t believe how easy it is for me to exceed my target of 2400 cal by simply doing nothing. granted i still do a workout everyday, but i have cut back on pushing myself too hard because i know i will get to my target without the workout really. combine my 2400 cal expenditure with my 14oo cal “diet” and voila, 1000 calorie deficit leading to 2 lb. weight loss per week. the math is calculated by the program itself and it the only encouragement i have right now that despite my scale reading no loss, i am following the program and will lead to the weight loss decent as soon as this blasted water leaves my hips and stomach. OK! i think i said everything i wanted to say… did i miss anything??? let me know

have a great day guys and start thinking of those plans to avoid super bowl weight gain! oh… and i will have to gush about biggest loser episodes later… gots to study for my mammoth test over the GI system on monday! (no super bowl for me )

it is only day two and i am hooked!! if anyone doesn’t know about the bodybugg, you should check it out. it is a metabolic device i wear on my left tricep and that’s it. it does all the work. logs how many calories i burn and how many steps i take. i even got the digital reader (can be a watch or a clip on) that tells me my calorie count without logging into my computer account. so with that brief explanation, let me tell you that i think i found out why i might not be losing weight as quickly or even at all. i was counting my calories during the day and allotting the approriate exercise calories too. i was shooting for 1400 cal a day and working out 650+ cal and weight lifting at the gym. with all that, the scale wasnt moving. well, yesterday was day 1 at the gym with the bodybugg & found out, to my wholehearted dismay, that my vigorous 650+ cal workout was really only 350 cal by bodybugg terms. how crappy and disappointing is that??? the machines i use at the gym i thought were accurate because i could input my weight and have it calculate my calories burned. . . . . . . . .so yesterday and today, i found out how tiring burning 600 bodybugg calories really are. geesh, i am exhausted!!!!  however, i cannot wait to weigh in on monday and see my results from week one of bodybugg! i will keep everyone posted.

i survived my test this morning, i think i have learned more about diarrhea, vomiting, food poisoning, laxative, irritable bowel syndrome, chron’s disease, hepatits, etc. etc etc etc to last me a lifetime. the test wasn’t too bad, but i am definitely less stressed now that it is over and i have some pressure free work for 3 more weeks before the next test. anyways, that is not what this blog is about. i am currently watching my weekly biggest loser episode. can i tell you i am so pissed off with the charcter joelle. i love carla and she knows what is gonna on, but joelle is slacking. how could they have screened candidates to find the best couples for this season and NOT realized how unmotivated joelle is and how much she is taking this once in a lifetime opportunity for granted. i just want to scream. last week, it should have been her to go home, NOT jerry. my oh my… anyone else pissed about her attitude???!!!

oh and btw, i will write more later, but i bought a new “toy” and it went through the trial run today so we will see how it works. anyone else have the metabolic device called bodybugg?? it was on the doctors show and i just HAD to indulge!!

much love- til later

so…. i have hit a stalemate before i even started the loss. i dont get it and i need to rearrange my thoughts. my ultimate goal is to tone up and whittle my waist… that’s it!!! not 50 lb, not 40, not even 30….. i would be thrilled with 15 even, but i am striving for 20-25. BUT let’s get back to my point. my scale has stayed between 166 and 164 now for two weeks. what the heck am i doing wrong??? i workout everyday and burn 650 calories in 40 min (so i really push it) and i eat around 1600 cal. i have been good, so i honestly dont understand my stagnicity. i am afraid to cut the calories to 1200 because i am afraid that will starve myself (because with workout, my total calories for the day would be around 600) and lead to a binge just because my body is so gosh darn hungry. so buddies, what do i do??? any suggesetions??? i want to make you proud as you have me and be successful. i am trying to keep my mind sane. i try measuring myself and there isn’t a change on that front either! arg. trying to stay positive… hope everyone is enjoying their MONDAY !!!

i ran across this website a month or so ago and was amazed by the before and after photos of the people in it. it is amazing and it is a great motivator for those that might be dragging this point in the week. let not our game plan be in vain! WE CAN DO THIS!!!  enjoy. http://www.womenshealthmag.com/weight-loss/weight-loss-success-stories-11?page=0

a little morsel for thought: i wish i had a trainer like Bob or Gillian from biggest loser. my workouts would be incredible because right now i am a little monotonous. wait, let’s back that train back up and say, damn i just wish i had a trainer, period! HA! anyways, my day is over, i am hitting the books, and all went well today. i will look forward to cheking in tomorrow! good luck everyone! ♥

my goal for this year was to try to stop thinking like pooh bear instead of eeyore. despite absolutely loving the character of eeyore, we all could learn a lot from the way winnie the pooh thinks optimistically. and all in all, i think the pooh technique is off to a great start. day by day, i want to take something that usually would distress me and spin it a new way. so, what was my new spin of life today??? my weigh in. i came back from the holidays without having destroyed my weight loss and after one week of being back on track i did have results. granted it is 2 pounds heavier than my lowest before the holidays(the eeyore in me), but still a loss is a loss and i didn’t have too much of a struggle to stay on top of everything (the new pooh in me).

short and sweet and to the point. gotta hit the books, i am feeling greatly motivated to stay on top of my material.

only been back to routine one week and somehow i got the flu bug on thursday, friday and finally got a little better yesterday. i didn’t miss a workout miraculously, but i was dragging more than usual. i did a lot of resting or i should say as much as i could because my ornry dog had too much energy to let me rest peacefully. so, i made it to sunday finally. i am feeling pretty good and now i have to play catch up from my lectures, dishes, laundry, etc. 

i wish everyone a good sunday, hopefully restful and productive and rearing to get started on the new week. my weekly weigh in is tomorrow since i have been back to my routine one week after having been out of town for the holidays. so, we’ll see what tomorrow brings.

the day is winding down. . . . . boy am i tired. the day went well. nothing really to report. i am in kind a blah-sa mood today. still hurting a little about my decision to split with the boyfriend, but i havent given in yet, which is the good part, on top of that, it really is just out of boredom that i hurt. why is it that men have no time with turnaround to the next girl and women wallow for a little while to get them out of their system before they can move on??? granted i know the answer to that question (men dont get as emotionally involved as women on average). OK, enough, i know everyone doesn’t want to hearing griping so i will turn this blog around. i will say thank you for letting me get out a little emotion because i dont have the opportunity to air my thoughts except for on here. so thanks for skimming through the pathetic parts. ANYWAYS, my workout went well today, as did my food plan. and the best part of my night is…drumroll……. it’s snowing here! let’s hope it sticks. i am a snowbunny at heart. finally, my favorite show is on tonight: top chef. i know it is a guilty pleasure, but a girl has to have her vices to get through the week. 

i hope all buddyslimmers are finding their mid-week routine to be advantageous to a healthy lifestyle. it is a new year and we are ready to see ourselves as NEW. it can be done, so LET’S DO IT!